chrissy
09-27-2001, 10:01 AM
I know I haven't posted at all recently. And I left rather rudely not saying bye and all. But I felt at the time I had too.
Things happen ya know. Things that were happening in my life and on the board were too much. I was working with Jenny and Judy to help make www.girlsgotdeals.com just as good as the site that it originated from and something happened on the way.
About 2 or 3 weeks ago, my mood changed. It probably started a little before then... looking back. My kids and husband could do nothing right, my husband would say something to me that was trivial and I would break down and cry like I had been beat. I would change moods in a matter of milliseconds. The month before, I locked myself in my bedroom in the dark and stayed there for hours only to come out and belittle Donnie for not doing something little right. I beat up my sewing machine because the thread would break (tension on the thread was wrong but you couldn't tell me that).
As for what happened that you saw, the bra thing, I don't care. Flat out. Talk about it all you want. Heck, I have talked about a lot worse in the chat room with a few people. I think my intentions at the time was to protect Welfare. I don't know why I needed to do that. She has proved she can protect herself millions of times over. It got out of hand and out of proportion and I know most of the blame on that is on me. I am sorry.
And for the other blow up I had, well, I am standing behind that one. A wonderful thread was started with beautiful pictures of America. Burning an American flag isn't beautiful. I might have been harsh, but I was fed up. Fed up with life and myself.
I went to the doctor yesterday. I have been diagnosed with severe PMDD. ( www.pmdd.com ) I am on medication ( Sarafem ) during that time to help me maintain my moodswings and they changed the bc pill they prescribed me when I lost my baby in June. We are going to try this out for a few months to see what happens.
I might pop in and out of here for a little bit until I get "normal" again. Judy, Jenny, you guys are wonderful! Thanks for being there.
Till then...
Things happen ya know. Things that were happening in my life and on the board were too much. I was working with Jenny and Judy to help make www.girlsgotdeals.com just as good as the site that it originated from and something happened on the way.
About 2 or 3 weeks ago, my mood changed. It probably started a little before then... looking back. My kids and husband could do nothing right, my husband would say something to me that was trivial and I would break down and cry like I had been beat. I would change moods in a matter of milliseconds. The month before, I locked myself in my bedroom in the dark and stayed there for hours only to come out and belittle Donnie for not doing something little right. I beat up my sewing machine because the thread would break (tension on the thread was wrong but you couldn't tell me that).
As for what happened that you saw, the bra thing, I don't care. Flat out. Talk about it all you want. Heck, I have talked about a lot worse in the chat room with a few people. I think my intentions at the time was to protect Welfare. I don't know why I needed to do that. She has proved she can protect herself millions of times over. It got out of hand and out of proportion and I know most of the blame on that is on me. I am sorry.
And for the other blow up I had, well, I am standing behind that one. A wonderful thread was started with beautiful pictures of America. Burning an American flag isn't beautiful. I might have been harsh, but I was fed up. Fed up with life and myself.
I went to the doctor yesterday. I have been diagnosed with severe PMDD. ( www.pmdd.com ) I am on medication ( Sarafem ) during that time to help me maintain my moodswings and they changed the bc pill they prescribed me when I lost my baby in June. We are going to try this out for a few months to see what happens.
I might pop in and out of here for a little bit until I get "normal" again. Judy, Jenny, you guys are wonderful! Thanks for being there.
Till then...