I'm such a pathetic sap....

[Ladogaboy]

I've been thinking about this girl that I have a really big crush on, and sometimes, I think she might be interested in me as well. The problem is that I'm in no position to maintain any sort of communication with her, and as time continues to pass by, my imagination starts to get the better of me. I start to think of the things we might do if we were together, things I could talk to her about, etc., etc.

The thing is, we are friends in a sense, but I've never been able to get as close to her as I've wanted. I was thinking about it the other day, and I realized that most of what I know about her I've learned as kind of second hand information. Nothing from the horse's mouth, so-to-speak. I want to become a closer friend to her, but at the same time, I have feelings for her that I don't think I can quite justify.

I know that crushes and infatuations are normal occurances, but I wonder why I set myself up like this. I have no way to confirm if she even has an interest in me, and it is really starting to bother me because I can't seem to get in contact with her... even just to chat.

Damn. I feel like I'm falling in love with a person that might not even exist... like I'm setting myself up for a huge let-down. :neartears

[nickel]

is this an online persona?

[Cubsfan]

Wait a second, is this Mary Carey?
:D

So why can't you maintain communication? Distance? Time? Or do you just not have mutual friends?

[cheapie]

Originally posted by Cubsfan
Wait a second, is this Mary Carey?
:D

So why can't you maintain communication? Distance? Time? Or do you just not have mutual friends?


just wait until the elections are over. it will be far easier to spend some "quality" time with her then.

[Ladogaboy]

Originally posted by nickelback
is this an online persona?

No. I've known her for almost 6 years now.

[Ladogaboy]

Originally posted by Cubsfan
Wait a second, is this Mary Carey?
:D

Umm.... :shifty:


Originally posted by Cubsfan
So why can't you maintain communication? Distance? Time? Or do you just not have mutual friends?

Partly distance. Partly time. And our mutual friends--one in particular--seem to want to "ease" me into communication with her. :hmm: The problem is, I've only been able to hang out with her twice in the last six months. And both of those times are with groups of people (4-8).

[Cubsfan]

So why not just ask her out on a date? Or on a group outing with a group of your choice? (Me and jake are going to the ballgame, want to go?)

[Ladogaboy]

Thank you, chosen. All I really want right now is a phone number or e-mail address, but my friend is probably right: it would be best for me to get it from her in person. That way, if she is comfortable or wants to be more than just aquaintance-like friends, it is her call. Luckily, her birthday is coming up really soon, and even if I'm unable to attend, I can at least drop her a card--and maybe a hint. :)

[cheapchinese]

email's so easy to get.....try not to get scared
gift on birthday... not yet

[Ladogaboy]

Originally posted by cheapchinese
email's so easy to get.....try not to get scared
gift on birthday... not yet

Heh, I'm not going to get her a gift. One, I can't afford one at the moment, and two, I wouldn't know what to get her. Oh, and I'm not scared. I have no reason to go into this with anything less than a win-win attitude. I get to know her better and find out that she isn't my kind of girl: win. I get to know her better and find out that she is my kind of girl: definite win. :D

Anyway, a card is what it shall be. Nothing more. Nothing less.

The thing is--this might just be an ideal scenario that my mind made up--, I believe that she might be interested in me, but she knew my ex and how close we had become. She had gone through something similar, and she might just be giving me time... I hope??? Either way, I'll put the ball in her court, and she can take it from there.

[cheapchinese]

"god will bless you"

[Ladogaboy]

Originally posted by cheapchinese
"god will bless you"

It is ironic that you say that because my biggest concern with her is her religion. That is really the only thing that would prevent me from pursuing a relationship with someone that I feel this way about. :shrug: