I've got problems...

[Ladogaboy]

So, I was a work and I don't know if a particular smell or sound or whatever triggered it, but I breathed in, and the next thing I know, it's three years ago and I'm walking down the hall to my ex's dorm room. Everything feels right with the world, and I mean EVERYTHING. I have a future, hopes, dreams, and the knowledge that no matter what happens, I'll never be alone in this life. I turn the corner into her room, and she is standing there in her pajama bottoms and a t-shirt, hair still disheveled from sleep, messing with some tupperware filled with home-cooked food that her mother had given her. She looks up and me and smiles, and I walk up to her, slowly slide my hands around her waist, and pull her into a soft embrace. The curves of her body fit perfectly with mine, like they always did, and I smell her hair as I bring my chin to rest on her shoulder.... I close my eyes and feel like I can hold that pose forever. :neartears

I hate this ****! It's been over a year since I've seen her, almost 6 months since I've even talked to her, and I still have these feelings that well up--seemingly--from nowhere. I feel like I'm in the middle of a tug-of-war between my past and future. I feel like I cannot go on without completely leaving my past behind, and I feel that my future will be devoid of meaning without my past. I'm so frustrated, and I just don't know what to do about it. I was about 5 minutes away from calling her, but something is keeping me from doing it. The other day, I was daydreaming about this girl I have a crush on, and I called her by my ex's ****ing name. WTH am I supposed to do if that happens and real life? It makes me wonder if I'm really ready to move on... but it also makes me worry about what will happen if I don't. :sad:

[oblongmelon]

Did she dump you? or what? You'll be over her in time...but you'll have fond memories-until someone better comes to take her place. Don't worry-you're just a typical normal stalker type freak that ever girl wants in her life..DON'T CALL her-I say bad move.

[ShawnLee]

That sucks dude. I feel you man.

[look_ma]

Hey ladogaboy, may seem weird, but what kind of physical activity do you participate in. If not in any, maybe you should take up running. For me, when I have trouble knowing where to go next I just run and run until my mind has nothing to think about anymore. I run every night, and if I miss I go crazy the next day, but If I am having particular trouble with something I just run until I just have got it out of my system. Not to say it won't come back, but really helps relieve the stress out of a problem.

[Leebo]

I feel ya too man. Just hang in there, it'll alll work out

[revil]

ugh. I know how you feel. but look_ma's advise is good. since I dedicated myself to judo, it really takes my mind off of her and i think of other things now.

[Emqtee]

Whenever you start to think about your ex try and remind yourself why she is an ex. We don't know the situation, but there has to be a reason why you are no longer together.

Maybe it really isn't about her at all though. Seems like you are going through a lot of stuff in your life right now. Aren't you dissatisfied with your job and thinking about moving? Sounds silly but maybe the anxiety or stress you are feeling makes you think about the easier times in your life. The time in your life when you thought you had every thing planned out.

Hang in there. . . Like others said, keep yourself occupied with other things. Everything will come into place. Remember though you aren't alone.

[Ladogaboy]

Hey ladogaboy, may seem weird, but what kind of physical activity do you participate in.

Not much, actually. I used to be a lot more active, but lately, I haven't been doing much of anything. I'll probably start doing more, again, but I've got to take care of the stuff in my life right now.

We were so ingrained in each others lives... it's almost unfair. Everytime I turn around, I see another thing that she got me, we bought together, did together, etc. I tried putting most of her stuff in a box and just stuff it somewhere, but that doesn't always help. I just need to reconcile my past, present and future.... arg.

[DarkFury]

Honestly, you have to ask yourself... why did I break it off with her the first time?

If it was because of your own "internal problems" then maybe you have grown enough to try again...

If it was because she was a psycho manipulating hell-demon of a woman, then I'd suggest you just run right now while you still have a chance... cause once they get their hooks locked into you, it's over... Trust me, I am an expert on this. :D

Pootey-tang... it's a hell of a drug. :hmm:

[nickel]

poor DF forever stuck to a demonwoman :P

[Ladogaboy]

Honestly, you have to ask yourself... why did I break it off with her the first time?

If it was because of your own "internal problems" then maybe you have grown enough to try again...



Actually, she broke it off because of my own "internal problems," and though I think I've grown a lot since then, she'll probably forever refuse to look at me with an open mind. And, to be perfectly honest, my "issues" were no different than the ones she is having right now--yes, I do know a little of what is going on in her life. They were just compounded by her friends. Yes, I now know the power of a woman's friends. If you aren't in good with them, your relationship is doomed to faliure. :shrug: That's what I got for falling in love with a spineless girl. Too bad she hadn't learned how to grow a back-bone while she and I were together.

[zenbooty]

Don't call her. You've come this far.

[DaFunkyUnit]

how can you say no to "bonus night" ?

[Ladogaboy]

how can you say no to "bonus night" ?


Before we say goodbye...

Before you turn and walk away...