RSS:unexplained depression

[Yossarian]

I have no clue what set it off, but sunday night I got superdepressed for no reason, no trigger, at all. So I wrote this poem entitled 'Youth'

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The lonely nights
Asleep in bed
Tired from my day
As an 8-year old boy

Waiting for mom
To pull up the driveway
From saving lives
From the rigors of nursing

My jealousy runs deep
She’s not here
I can’t feel
Her loving embrace

Working three-to-eleven
She sees me
While I sleep
Missing my life

She climbs the steps
I hear the creak
My eyes shut tighter
I contradict my thoughts

I want to talk
Enjoy her company
Enjoy an embrace
Instead I “sleep”

I feel her gaze
Her loving touch
She ran away
That gaze is gone

The nights are even more lonely.


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and i'm still depressed, and i don't know why. yes, i know i have issues with my mother. i haven't seen her in 3 years. i haven't gotten a birthday wish or x-mas card in 2. but i realize that she made the decision and removed herself from my life. **** it. no wonder i've got woman problems, i can't even deal with my own mother

[KIISQueen]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Have you tried talking to someone?

hope you have a great day :D

[nickel]

what an awesome poem. i know when you read something and you feel like you are in the author's shoes that they've really done a good job. i could feel exactly what you were trying to convey.

is there counseling on campus available for you? talking these feelings out will help. i don't blame you for being mixed up when your mother does what she has done.

[Maarchk]

Was there anything going on at the time you became sad? Do you have any good female friends who you aren't pursuing as girlfriends?
I know i had some issues cause my family was never around and i figured out that for me, i was bummed that i'd be getting great grades and doing good things in my life and no one was ever there to tell me i'd done well and that they were proud of me. It was a bit selfish for me to feel that way but when you are doing and initiating your life on your own and you aren't totally sure whats the right thing or the best thing, its nice to hear someone tell you they are proud of you. So i dont know, just a thought.
Just make sure you get plenty of sunshine and physical activity. Cause moping around indoors usually only contributes to being down.

Good luck.

m-

[oblongmelon]

Yoss..you're old enough to try and make contact with your mother and discuss the issues at hand like adults. I know it's going to be hard, but it might answer alot of your questions. It must suck not having her around, but if she's not into the whole motherhood thing-it would probably be worse for you if she was..why don't you give her a call.

[Yossarian]

so yeah, it hasn't gone away, in fact its gotten worse.

i find out today, that a girl who i had spent sometime with, before she decided that she didn't want a relationship, as she graduates in 2 weeks, is now dating one of my friends, whom i had told that i had feeleings for her.


thank you to those who have offered your ears

[speedracer120]

Yoss, shake it off. Those two have shown you with their actions how little they care for you. There are plenty others who you can rely on and trust. Don't let her get in the way of living your life.

[cheapie]

it's healthy to realize you're depressed and deal with it like you're doing.

[DarkFury]

so yeah, it hasn't gone away, in fact its gotten worse.

i find out today, that a girl who i had spent sometime with, before she decided that she didn't want a relationship, as she graduates in 2 weeks, is now dating one of my friends, whom i had told that i had feeleings for her.


thank you to those who have offered your ears
Geez that does suck...

but take it from me... you can get past this. Raise your pimp hand strong there young man... there is another out there for ya.

Don't let one get ya down... As far as the friend goes... well you might have to deal with him on the side. :hmm:

[Houdini]

Any updates? Depression hurts, and a lot of us are concerned. Hell, it's my area of expertise and I've been there personally. I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say I hope things are better.

[nickel]

i think everyone gets "depressed" from time to time, but true depression has specific symptoms like for example, not looking forward to or wanting to engage in activities that you used to enjoy.

Yoss, you need to get together with friends and plan some fun stuff to do even if you have to take the role of planner. which is my role in my circle of friends, but someone's got to do it.
whitewater rafting, hiking, cook-outs, going to festivals, kayaking, canoeing, camping, fishing... you know, fun Summer stuff in the NorthEast.

[Yossarian]

things are better in some areas. i'm not as depressed anymore, but i'm still down there. summer isn't the best of times for me, as i'm away from all my friends at school. i know i can make new ones and do have a few, but not any that i can hang out with just because. it also means more time with my father, not taht i don't like or get along with him, but our negative waves feed off each other. its always been that way, but its amplified when i'm home for the summer, because i'm gone for 9 months out of the year (i come home for breaks and MAYBE one other weekend a semester)

as for activities, i don't have the funds to do jack crap. the money i make in sumemr goes to books and my spending money for the whole school year

[MJordanash]

things are better in some areas. i'm not as depressed anymore, but i'm still down there. summer isn't the best of times for me, as i'm away from all my friends at school. i know i can make new ones and do have a few, but not any that i can hang out with just because. it also means more time with my father, not taht i don't like or get along with him, but our negative waves feed off each other. its always been that way, but its amplified when i'm home for the summer, because i'm gone for 9 months out of the year (i come home for breaks and MAYBE one other weekend a semester)

as for activities, i don't have the funds to do jack crap. the money i make in sumemr goes to books and my spending money for the whole school year
Try to get your books off of eBay or Barnes and Noble...I noticed they are a lot cheaper.

[nickel]

things are better in some areas. i'm not as depressed anymore, but i'm still down there. summer isn't the best of times for me, as i'm away from all my friends at school. i know i can make new ones and do have a few, but not any that i can hang out with just because. it also means more time with my father, not taht i don't like or get along with him, but our negative waves feed off each other. its always been that way, but its amplified when i'm home for the summer, because i'm gone for 9 months out of the year (i come home for breaks and MAYBE one other weekend a semester)

as for activities, i don't have the funds to do jack crap. the money i make in sumemr goes to books and my spending money for the whole school year
you don't need funds to do jack crap. ;)
biking, hiking, fishing, are all relatively inexpensive. you've got to plan at least one really fun thing to do this summer or else it will be a long boring summer for you.

[MJordanash]

I agree that fishing is a lot of fun and really cheap as well if you already have the basic equipment. I spent all day Saturday and Sunday out on the water and it was free not to mention a nice tan with it.

[brainsmile]

I love to fish as well. Even if you don't catch anything it's all good

[welfareloser]

I love to fish as well. Even if you don't catch anything it's all good

no excuse for catching nothing. dynamite's legal.



yoss, try to force yourself to get out there and do something fun... even if you're not motivated to plan/get moving, you'll feel better once you do.

and if you can't motivate yourself, make sure you reach out to someone for help... drop a load off your chest onto a friend. and if it gets worse, make an appointment with a doctor. most people want to deny that they need help with depression, don't like the stigma attached to seeking mental health care... you don't have to tell anyone, and the doc is going to be the last person to judge you ;)

[Houdini]

no excuse for catching nothing. dynamite's legal.



yoss, try to force yourself to get out there and do something fun... even if you're not motivated to plan/get moving, you'll feel better once you do.

and if you can't motivate yourself, make sure you reach out to someone for help... drop a load off your chest onto a friend. and if it gets worse, make an appointment with a doctor. most people want to deny that they need help with depression, don't like the stigma attached to seeking mental health care... you don't have to tell anyone, and the doc is going to be the last person to judge you ;)

:stupid: And not just b/c I'm a psychiatrist. I've been there, and I have many friends who have been there as well. Modern psychiatry offers a lot despite what Cruise says. The stigma is quickly going away, but not quickly enough. It really wouldn't hurt to see a professional about it, be he/she a psychologist, social worker, or psychiatrist. Talk to a friend too. Tell him/her everything along with any plans you may have to go to a doc. I'm sure you'll get plenty of support.

Also, try to get some exercise. This can be fun as well. Traveling can be kind of laborious when you're depressed, but doing something like fishing, canoeing, kayaking, etc., if you live near any water can cost next to nothing, can get your mind off things, and can provide exercise without boring running or lifting, etc.

A lot of us are worried about you, though. Know that you have our support! Feel free to email me with any questions, etc.

-H

[Yossarian]

i knows peepes, i knows.

its not like depression is new to me, my parents divored at 12, it was EXTREMELY messy, then my grandparents(with whom i would actually consider my g-ma to be more of my mother) divorced 2 years later, combined with the normal teenage crap, i'm no stranger to it.

when the divorce was still new, i was going to a shrink(i'm to lazy to spell it out, no offence meant) and about 4 months into it i realized how much he was trying to force religion upon me and was actually maknig me feel worse by being sarcastic and short when i said i had to go( i was working as a lifeguard/mowing lawns and often had only an hour for an appointment, he thought it needed to be 2) aso i stopped going. he kinda jaded me to the whole idea. i know it has its merits, and i don't discredit it or look down upon those that go or work it, i just feel that it's not for me.

as for summer fun, imma throw a coupla holes in your plans then show some of my own.

fishing is out, i'm not a big fisher/hunter. i'll go on occasion with dad, but max once a year. exercise i got goin. well, when the weather/work schedule permits. i'm on my feet for 8 hours when working, so the legs are a little tired, but i'm doing a volleyball workout for the legs/quickness, and bball tuesday and thursday nights, if not more pending people at the courts.

i love to go canoeing and stuff, but i won't go alone, saftey reasons, and my dad isn't exactly in shape to do it, but i do understand that there are things i can do.

this weekend i'm going to a friends house for the weekend to partay for memorial day and then later in the summer we're going to the beach(OBX) for a week, and i'm taking along 2 female friends, possibly three(thanks for the lessons DF)

i also appreciate you guys listening, i've been ranting for almost 5 years now, and i know obby's commented on the maturation process. its all her fault, damnit!

[DarkFury]

BTW Yoss... I meant to ask you...

You said that the "money you make in the Summer, goes to pay expenses for the rest of the year"...

Do you have a Summer job somewhere? Or is this from odd jobs and whatnot? If you don't have a good Summer job, then why not look for a "fun Summer job" like workin' in the mall or something where you can spend your whole summer checkin' out "hawt mall chicks" and whatnot?

I remember doing that myself my Freshman year in College.... it was only taking 2 classes in summer school so I got a "fun job" just to make a little extra cash as well as pass the time during the Summer. Sure as hell beat sittin' at home moping around and whatnot.

Now as far as "suggestions" for other "fun summer jobs"... well... you are a very athletic young man... try lookin' at the local YMCA and seeing if you can help them with youth basketball. That way you can do something you love and help the "kids" improve their game as well. Stuff like that can go a long way to making your Summer "less boring". Or maybe you have a local pool where you can be a "lifeguard" or something... Or maybe a bowling alley, skate park, fun center, or whatever young folks like to hang out to have fun.

C'mon man.. you got it in ya... go on out and "Git 'er done". :thumb:

[Yossarian]

i've got a job, 40 hours a week, variable shift schedule. if i could make more, i've had offers to work basketball camps (Keystone Camps with Pete White) but i can make more money, and be closer to home doing other things, i'll only get $250 a week for that, whereas i can get $300 a week with a 10 roundtrip commute. the camps i'd hafta be driving cross-state every two week, 5 hours one way.

i've looked into getting a second job, but the only other things i could reasonably do would have me full-time and i can't do 16 hour days(even as a young buck, i know my limitation, i've still got a volleyball season to keep up for)

[Houdini]

when the divorce was still new, i was going to a shrink(i'm to lazy to spell it out, no offence meant) and about 4 months into it i realized how much he was trying to force religion upon me and was actually maknig me feel worse by being sarcastic and short when i said i had to go( i was working as a lifeguard/mowing lawns and often had only an hour for an appointment, he thought it needed to be 2) aso i stopped going. he kinda jaded me to the whole idea. i know it has its merits, and i don't discredit it or look down upon those that go or work it, i just feel that it's not for me.


Sounds like you found the wrong guy. That's it. There are thousands of good M.D. psychiatrists who are trained to be much better therapists use medications than that guy seems to have been. I know nobody in my field around here who forces religion on anyone, nor is sarcastic. That particular shrink may not have been for you, but with all you're going through, I STRONGLY encourage you to go to another one. Depression treatments have grown exponentially in the past few years, and many drugs are almost tailored to people just like you. And they work.



fishing is out, i'm not a big fisher/hunter. i'll go on occasion with dad, but max once a year. exercise i got goin. well, when the weather/work schedule permits. i'm on my feet for 8 hours when working, so the legs are a little tired, but i'm doing a volleyball workout for the legs/quickness, and bball tuesday and thursday nights, if not more pending people at the courts.


So you have some scheduling problems. We all do at times, especially when you're tired from standing all day. That's not really helping your symptoms though, nor is it necessarily hurting them.



i love to go canoeing and stuff, but i won't go alone, saftey reasons, and my dad isn't exactly in shape to do it, but i do understand that there are things i can do.


Canoeing is actually pretty safe, but that was just an idea. Something different to change up your routine on weekends, etc.



this weekend i'm going to a friends house for the weekend to partay for memorial day and then later in the summer we're going to the beach(OBX) for a week, and i'm taking along 2 female friends, possibly three(thanks for the lessons DF)





as for activities, i don't have the funds to do jack crap. the money i make in sumemr goes to books and my spending money for the whole school year

Have you tried to inventory exactly how the money was spent this past year? Factoring in partying, etc? Not to ride you too much on this, but be honest with yourself.

I know you're low on funds, as you've mentioned, and I know you're going to be partying. So, not to sound too parenty, don't buy or drink any alcohol. I know you've talked about being drunk, etc., before, and alcohol gets expensive. Plus, while it may make you feel a little better for an hour or so, it will only exacerbate your symptoms. Congrats on the decision to hang out with friends, though. Just tell people you can't drink right now. Handle the peer pressure.



i also appreciate you guys listening, i've been ranting for almost 5 years now, and i know obby's commented on the maturation process. its all her fault, damnit!

Well, to be fair, the drunk stuff, and knowing what college is like, having been there/done that and having gone through the typical college stressors - money, alcohol, etc., I'd have to agree with her. Though I'm still young, I'm a completely different person than I was in college. It's just part of growing up. More money won't necessarily help you now. And to be fair, again, you have admitted to drinking a lot, etc., which isn't always the best way to spend money, and it's easy to end up broke. (Trust me, I bought a lot of rounds at the nightclub where I produce the show, and it can really catch up with you.) It may and will actually make things worse, unless you spend it on a doc and meds. And, again, I'm not saying that b/c I'm a shrink. Check out the student health center. Get referred to another shrink or one there. Zillions of college students are feeling just like you right now, so we're used to dealing with it and helping people. I know you said in your experience it's "not for you," but you have to admit, your experience is VERY limited, with an n=1.

Also, girl problems suck. And they don't get much better as you get older. It just takes time. I know it's bad timing for you, but there's never good timing for that kind of stuff. At any rate, it's another stressor that can be alleviated through therapy and even moreso by proper medication.

PM me, please. I'd rather try to help over PM. And I really don't mind if you want to rant to me. It's what I do, at least part time. :)

[Markel]

PM me, please. I'd rather try to help over PM. And I really don't mind if you want to rant to me. It's what I do, at least part time. :)
This is what makes this place so great, IMHO. :thumbup:

[Yossarian]

PM me, please. I'd rather try to help over PM. And I really don't mind if you want to rant to me. It's what I do, at least part time. :)


clear out your inbox, that makes it easier to recieve them....

[Houdini]

clear out your inbox, that makes it easier to recieve them....

heh...you're right. didn't realize it was full....mostly empty now, so fire away. Though I may not get back to you until tomorrow. Gotta crash now.

Take care,

H

[Yossarian]

take your time, just telling you to stop being so secretly popular

[Yossarian]

slight update. this weekend was a blast, got to meet some new people, had a lot of fun. ended up being a topic of conversation the whole weekend(who knew that i still sleep walk?)

all in all, twas good times

[DarkFury]

Glad to hear that man... :D

Just remember... there are alot of folks out here who care about ya... and we wouldn't want any "depressing thoughts" make ya do something stupid.

[Yossarian]

i'm smart enough not to do something stupid. not to say i haven't thought about it in the past, but i also realize that it would hurt those that i love more than my being alive does. and it also is the cheap way out. to me it shows weakness beyond comprehension to do something that stupid. everyone has problems, i'll just deal with them

[nickel]

i'm smart enough not to do something stupid. not to say i haven't thought about it in the past, but i also realize that it would hurt those that i love more than my being alive does. and it also is the cheap way out. to me it shows weakness beyond comprehension to do something that stupid. everyone has problems, i'll just deal with them

It is characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things.
-Henry David Thoreau

[Houdini]

i'm smart enough not to do something stupid. not to say i haven't thought about it in the past, but i also realize that it would hurt those that i love more than my being alive does. and it also is the cheap way out. to me it shows weakness beyond comprehension to do something that stupid. everyone has problems, i'll just deal with them

Smart doesn't have anything to do with it, though. Some of the world's smartest artists, scientists, politicians, etc., suffered from various mental illnesses that may, to an extent, have influenced their work positively. However, many did suicide.

Mental illness is treatable, moreso now than ever before. If you ever have those thoughts again, be sure to tell someone and make sure you're in a safe environment for your own protection. I've seen too many people get into very bad places just due to depression. If you really study suicide - stats, methods, characteristics of those who do, contributing factors, etc., - intelligence has little to no bearing. Intelligence doesn't always trump emotions, and behaviors are often triggered by emotions.

We all care about you here, and like I said, if you ever need anything, drop me a line (my mailbox isn't full anymore) and stay in touch with everyone here, even if you feel worse and don't have the energy to login.

Take care, and I'm glad you had a great weekend! Hopefully I'll have one of my own this weekend, b/c this weekend has been REALLY busy. (Work, Producing/performing/lighting/sounding at Harry Anderson's, studying for boards - taking them June 12-13, etc.) At least I'm taking off work starting tomorrow and won't return until June 14. :)

[Yossarian]

you never responded in full to my last PM. :P

[Houdini]

you never responded in full to my last PM. :P

Really? Gotta check on that. My memory sucks for some reason nowdays. At any rate, sorry! :(

[Yossarian]

and now my dad and step-mom are refusing to let me to return to my college, i've gotta goto community college. yay.

[DarkFury]

and now my dad and step-mom are refusing to let me to return to my college, i've gotta goto community college. yay.
Say whaaaaaa.....

Dayuuum... what happened now? Was your college too expensive or something?

[Jenny]

That's why they make student loans & grants. If your parents are refusing to pay and you want to go there, look into those. :shrug:

[Yossarian]

That's why they make student loans & grants. If your parents are refusing to pay and you want to go there, look into those. :shrug:

pfft, they aren't paying already, i'm loaning everything.

its a long big ole' mess, but they want me to take atleast a year off, so imma try and go to a community college in the same area, that way i'm still near my friends and faculty.

[Jenny]

Ah, ok. Well, good luck however you do it.

[cheapie]

what's the problem? they want to keep you out of trouble? they miss you? etc?

mho is that if you're getting loans for your school yourself, you are way too old to be told where to go to school. this is something that will affect the rest of your life.


and if there's any way to avoid it, DO NOT take a year off. once you lose momentum, it's very hard to get going again. that's why the number of seniors is so much lower than the number of freshmen.

[johnnymk]

what's the problem? they want to keep you out of trouble? they miss you? etc?

mho is that if you're getting loans for your school yourself, you are way too old to be told where to go to school. this is something that will affect the rest of your life.


and if there's any way to avoid it, DO NOT take a year off. once you lose momentum, it's very hard to get going again. that's why the number of seniors is so much lower than the number of freshmen.

:stupid: And that is true with most any large endeavour in life. Once you are off track, you can invent a whole bunch of excuses not to get back on.

[Yossarian]

the kicker with the loans is that my grandmother is co-signing them, and shes refusing to do so, unless i take the year off. looks like imma call my uncle, but i really hate to ask for help, even when its just a signature

[cheapie]

why do they want you to take a year off???

[Houdini]

why do they want you to take a year off???

I'd guess b/c of all the stressors he's mentioned earlier in this thread. But I agree, taking a year off is usually a very bad idea. One year turns int 2, then 3 then 20. Keep the momentum going and get it out of the way, however you have to do it. I've even taken a month or two off at a time, from work (training - residency) and it is REALLY hard to get the motivation to return, except that you feel like you should be doing something productive.

Send me a PM, man. I'll do what I can to help. And I will respond. If things are getting more serious, I know you have a great support system here on this board - a lot of people who care a lot about you. We Apexers try to stick together. :)

[Yossarian]

well, dad told me yesterday that he and my step-mom decided that they were going to let me decide what i think is best for me, so i'll be doing what i can to go back to waynesburg.

hopefully i'll also be able to also get my own place down there. i think it'd be more beneficial to me, less distractions and all.

[thresher]

Now I know why you're depressed... you're going to school in a place called Waynesburg! Get thee to a cool town - Austin, perhaps - where the healthy, smart people, and swimming holes are abundant. I know depression is tough, but the good news is that if you are careful to avoid depressants (alcohol for instance)and keep on keeping on, then time will heal a lot. If you ever just need to rant - pm me. I am a good typist with a lot wackier life than most! :)
All the best -
Thresh

[sunrisetech]

i'm smart enough not to do something stupid. not to say i haven't thought about it in the past, but i also realize that it would hurt those that i love more than my being alive does. and it also is the cheap way out. to me it shows weakness beyond comprehension to do something that stupid. everyone has problems, i'll just deal with them

Several people I know, including myself, are feeling this way lately. Chatting about it helps-so it's out in the "open". The counseling I've been receiving has been really helpful even though I was resistant at first to associating problems on my parents, but it does make sense we learn patterns early on.

Wish you the best. You seem really liked here.

[Yossarian]

well, i've run out of options for returning to WC this fall. i can't get a co-signer, and have no credit history, so even if i get a loan, my payments are gonna be so high, i'll never be able to afford it. sooo, i'm going to move to waynesburg, get an apartment, goto the local community college, and go back to WC when i'm not claimed by my parents next year

[gear02]

well, i've run out of options for returning to WC this fall. i can't get a co-signer, and have no credit history, so even if i get a loan, my payments are gonna be so high, i'll never be able to afford it. sooo, i'm going to move to waynesburg, get an apartment, goto the local community college, and go back to WC when i'm not claimed by my parents next year

Have you checked the school's financial aid? Maybe you can get federal grants and loans. See if you can talk to the financial aid people and tell them your situation. I'm sure they'll help you return to school.

[Yossarian]

Have you checked the school's financial aid? Maybe you can get federal grants and loans. See if you can talk to the financial aid people and tell them your situation. I'm sure they'll help you return to school.
because my parents claimed me on their taxes, i have to take their income into the equation. and the gov't says that they should be paying over 25k a year in tuition. and that ain't happening

[Yossarian]

welp, heres the final decision. i've already got a job around here, and while i had planned on moving down to Waynesburg, getting a job/apartment and going to the community college there, i won't be able to get a job that pays as much as i've got here. so i'm still moving out on my own(my dad and i agree, that if i stay here, it ain't gonna be purty) but i'll be relativly close(~15 mins) to home if i need laundry, a meal, ect. but i'll be working and going to school in the fall at a local cummunity college, getting my ass. in Education, then i can transfer ALL my credits to a 4 year, take two or three semesters of classes, graduate with a BS in history and have my ED cert.

and i've found meself a new girl. which is always a good thing.

[nickel]

things have a way of working themselves out Yoss. :thumbup:

[MikeD]

and i've found meself a new girl. which is always a good thing.

:)

Good news, indeed. Some silver lining to the dark clouds. I'm with Nickel, things work themselves out over time. The sun is shining all the time, even during the rainy days...you just can't see it. ;)

[Yossarian]

lesemi-update. more of me jsut saying fcuk.

spent $479 on a new fuel pump and power steering stuff for my car, and its still not running right.

[Yossarian]

and now i need a new exhaust and catalytic(sp) converter.

semi-good news, can be interpreted many different ways, tomorrow i go see my mom for the first time in over 3 years

[thresher]

Yoss - how's life brother? Did the mother visit go ok? Those things can go weird sometimes. We're pulling for ya. Still checking that pm box in case you just need to type a little stream of consciousness. :)
Keep the faith -
Thresh

[Yossarian]

the visit was...different. it went well, nothing was forced, convorsation and topics flowed well. we connected again, and i'm willing to see her again, but as i was driving home(i drove down to see her, i'll keep the reasons why confined to PM) realized how akward the whole meeting was. kinda hard for it not to be tho. first time in 3 years we had talked. first in probably 6 it was a conversation that was more than typical day to day convo.

as i was getting ready to leave, she started to tell me how happy she was that i had become more mature and grown-up than she ever thought possible. told me to thank dad and tell him he did a good job.

all in all, it was a good visit, but i'll be a bit rattled mentally for the next few days. lots to think of

[utcpal]

Everything.. will be fine dont worry YOss..

[Yossarian]

and a little update for y'all.


just found out the new girl has been cheating on me and been telling me flat out lies, so good bye to her.

[cadetevon]

I'm sorry that she cheated on you and lied to you...but I'm glad you're getting rid of her.

No need for that kind of stuff in ones life.

[nickel]

and a little update for y'all.


just found out the new girl has been cheating on me and been telling me flat out lies, so good bye to her.
not someone you'd want to build a relationship with ever.
good bye to bad rubbish.

how are your classes going?

[Yossarian]

not too bad, but it's only been since last wed taht we've had them

[Yossarian]

slight update for you peeps. things aren't too bad. the woman and i are doing great, work and school are ehh, but sos life. things are looking up, i should be moving out of my house next month, which will make things even better

[Maarchk]

slight update for you peeps. things aren't too bad. the woman and i are doing great, work and school are ehh, but sos life. things are looking up, i should be moving out of my house next month, which will make things even better

New woman right? Cause the last one was bad news...

[newcat]

Is ipod coming down in price soon????

[Houdini]

Is ipod coming down in price soon????

Er...what?

[MikeD]

Is ipod coming down in price soon????

Yes. Expect price cuts of around 40%, potentially 70% by the holiday season.

[Yossarian]

:cheers: its back. explained this time, but its wwaaaaay too long and complicated.

so i'll jsut be pathetic and drink alone on xmas eve.

[Yossarian]

short version, girls still suck.

[Houdini]

short version, girls still suck.

Yes they can. Sorry about not getting back to you before. It's been a damn rough year for me as well, as very few in this forum know. But if you need someone as a vent/sounding board, feel free to pm me. Hope things start looking up. They will. I'm kinda waiting for things to look up for me right now too. Looking forward to a new year, as this past one has been arguably the worst in my life.

[kimchicowboy]

short version, girls still suck.
yeah. my ex (broke up a few weeks ago) was major suckage. we were dating for about 1.5 years and then we have one of those major talks where she discusses her discontent with me. i break things off with her and she tells me she knew from the very beginning it wasn't going to work. well, thanks for stringing me along this whole time.

anyhow, i know there are some good girls out there. and so should you. :)

[Yossarian]

evidently i'm too sensative and that i don't really care

[kimchicowboy]

oops. i'm a bit tired. i meant "i know there are some good girls out there for you too." hahaha my bad dude.

[DarkFury]

She just didn't wanna buy you a Christmas present...

She'll be back in time for Valentine's Day. :heh:

[Yossarian]

she decided to go back to her ex, who she told me was emotionally abusive, never listned, and treated her just like a piece of ass.

and i'm too sensative.

*sigh*

[Yossarian]

starting friday at 3pm, ending today at noon, 16 hours of work, 8 hours of sleep, 22 hours of drinking, and 10 plus hours of..um, extra curricular activities...


gotta love having fun and getting your mind off of bad things, making new friends, and a new, um, extra curricular activities partner

[DarkFury]

starting friday at 3pm, ending today at noon, 16 hours of work, 8 hours of sleep, 22 hours of drinking, and 10 plus hours of..um, extra curricular activities...


gotta love having fun and getting your mind off of bad things, making new friends, and a new, um, extra curricular activities partner
Heh...

Tell "Fistina" we all said 'Hi!' ! :D (j/k)


Glad to hear that you found a new "mount"... as that is the sure cure for getting over the old one. :naughty:

[Yossarian]

the padiwan is using the tools and knowledge passed upon to him, much appreciated, master

[Houdini]

she decided to go back to her ex, who she told me was emotionally abusive, never listned, and treated her just like a piece of ass.

and i'm too sensative.

*sigh*

Been there, done that. Some girls just don't have any sense. Some are just attracted to "bad boys" who treat them like ass. They often end up marrying "good guys," but treat "good guys" like crap until they snap out of it.

H <--- mostly a good guy.

[Yossarian]

i must be a bachelor...i went to wal mart at 230 for bread and condoms......

[DarkFury]

i must be a bachelor...i went to wal mart at 230 for bread and condoms......
Heh... "Breakfast of Champions!" :heh:

[gwilks98]

i must be a bachelor...i went to wal mart at 230 for bread and condoms......

Whatever you do with the bread is your own bidniz, but allow me to point out that if that's how you think you get a yeast infection, you can probably take the condoms back.

[Yossarian]

not so suckage, new girl, quit old job.

suckage, quit old job...

[Yossarian]

good news, started the new job monday, fun stuff, its an increase in pay, better benefits, all that jazz. and i just e-filed and should be getting a nice chunk of change back

[Yossarian]

yup, lil update. one year ago tomorrow i got engaged, then got cheated on/left day after xmas. so i'm going on a revil weekend. even took off mon and tues so i can do a true bender. i'm not even close to a even content mood....

[uncledaddy]

I hope you get to feeling good soon. I can relate. I was once engaged and spent several thousand on the wedding that never happened. She left me on my birthday for some guy she met on one of her girls night out. A few years later I realized that it was for the better. :shrug:

Right now I'm on Cymbalta for an unrelated issue, (Post traumatic stress & depression due to PSD ), Docs say it's used for all types of depression. Seems to be ok, but I haven't been using it long.

Good luck. :)

[Yossarian]

Geez that does suck...

but take it from me... you can get past this. Raise your pimp hand strong there young man... there is another out there for ya.

Don't let one get ya down... As far as the friend goes... well you might have to deal with him on the side. :hmm:

imma have to raise my pimp hand here soon....i moved into a new place with a good friend(like a brother, really) back the end of jan. and now he's dating my ex...fiance....

[uncledaddy]

imma have to raise my pimp hand here soon....i moved into a new place with a good friend(like a brother, really) back the end of jan. and now he's dating my ex...fiance....

:eek: Whoa....what happened to the brother code. You know..."Bros before hoes". That sux!

No offense to any women out there! :D

[Yossarian]

have an update......


i was laid off yesterday, the girlfriend(started dating in august) found out her mom has 'a lump', and i got laid off....other than that, its been normal

[Maarchk]

Dude, I hope things work out for you and your friend's mom...
Where did you used to work? how the heck are there not people lined up to hire you? Who wouldn't want their own Giant?

Can't you get a job with the Brute Squad?

Are you still in PA? Cause i think that's half your problem. That place is slowww and rusty. it's not hip and cool like you are.

[Yossarian]

i used to drive for DHL

[DarkFury]

i used to drive for DHL
Maybe you can get on at FedEx... they gots the benefits. :)

[Yossarian]

both fedex and ups require you start out working the warehouse at part time....

[DarkFury]

dayuum.. so no points for previous experience?