gwilks98

So I've been seriously dating the love of my life for almost 5 1/2 years now. We currently live together (unofficially) and have for about 3 years.

Last night, I approached her about how distant she's been. She hasn't spent one night with me since her 2 week high-stress business trip to China.

She starts crying and states she's not sure if she loves me "that way" anymore.


The sex was still pretty good, and there wasn't lack of flirting on my part. I can still make her laugh, I tried to surprise her with small tokens of love and the relationship was going pretty well, I thought.

But now I'm getting this "I've been dating you since I was 19 and I don't know who I am. I need time alone to figure that out."

I told her I don't do breaks, but I'd be willing to move back a step. She moves back in with her parents, we try to see each other on the weekends so that she has some more space.

I don't suspect there's another rooster in the picture at this point. I'm pretty intuitive and I still trust her when she confirms that.

I'll be 28 in a month, my father's dying from aggressive brain cancer, my parents financial situation is in the toilet, my brother is mentally retarded and will significant amounts of help, we share a dog (that she technically owns) whom I fiercely love. I love her so much, but I just don't have the time for this. On top of all that, we work at the same company and have many of the same friends. 95% of our lives involves the other.

She hates her job. HATES. Her 3 bosses are nightmares in her eyes, but HR has failed 4 other employees before her with the same problems with the same person. The retail industry in StL has all but vanished, so if she wants to design clothes, she has to move to another city: an idea that's appealed to her for years.

I'm stuck here until further notice. I doubt I could ever live away from my brother, especially with dad dying.

I'm totally lost. She tells me how wonderful I am and that I treat her like a princess and she knows how bad her timing is, but she couldn't keep it from me anymore. Now I'm losing my dad, and potentially my dog and my love.


I can only pray that her soul searching reveals how much I mean to her and that she's willing to stay with me because I'd lose my mind if I lost her.

I'm not a praying man, but I could use the power of prayer here, peeps. Thanks.

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