a few nights ago, i was climbing to the top of a mountain in iceland in the springtime. it is the most beautiful scene i can imagine. at the top is a lake, and in the lake is a polar bear. i know i can't outrun it, so i play dead. i feel it coming closer... closer... then it has my hand in its mouth, and it's just toying with me, but i can feel the teeth that might decide to clamp down at any moment... it was excruciating, and it went on forever, and i COULDN'T WAKE UP!
the strange parts being that there are no lakes on top of mountains, and no polar bears in iceland...
then i have this recurring dream where there is this gorgeous ice-cream parlor, like a cross between a godiva chocolatier's and a VERY fancy cocktail lounge. everyone in there is taller than me, and they're all dressed up but i am in jeans and have no make-up on, so i feel like an unworthy skank. everyone else is super-cool, and laughing and having a great time, and i am alone, and i just know that if i asked, they would never serve me ice cream. so whaddaya suppose that means? (other than the basic "i am insecure.")





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