ok, well, i already sorta know the answer, i just want to know why this happens to me.

i haven't dated anyone in a while [sooooooooooooo incredably long i can't remember the last real boyfriend i had.] and its not because i didn't want to, i just kept on coming up with duds. or, in one case thats been going on for about 2 1/2 years now, the dependant boy who won't dump his girlfriend (of 7 years now) unless i tell him i will love him until the end of time. and if i didn't totally like him besides that littly quirk he would be awesome.

anyway, i'm straying, i'll try to stay on track!

so, on new years i meet this totally awesome guy. like, super cool, and i really like him and he likes me and lalalala la. but he lives 2 hours from me so its a little hard. but i think i could still work something out, even with the distance cause he's supa cool. so we will call him boy #1

now boy #2 is this other great guy i met at capoiera. and i dug him from the moment i laid eyes on him. and the ball never lands in my court so i thought i didn't really have a chance. but oh have things changed! we hung out tonight and i really like him too!

AND on top of all this, the dependant boy (boy #3) i think finally got rid of his girlfriend (or rather, she got rid of him,) so there are possiblities there, too. and like, a year ago i would have said no way to this kid, but i've been hanging out w/ him and getting to be really good friends, and i think i might like him, too. plus, all the issues i've had w/ him in the past he's making a HUGE effort to change...& i don't think he's doing it for me, i think he actually is realizing he's messed up a bit in he head and needs some professional help. *and no, he's not crazy, just insanly insecure. which although i don't have any problems with someone like that as a friend, its definitly not what i look for in a man.


so, my question is "what's up with that???" why is it that i hate every guy i meet, and in some crazy fluke there are now 3 good prospects. all of which are also interested in me! wahooo.

and what kills me is that i want to date all three, but i doubt that's a good idea either. and i'm also known for making bad choices, and i don't want to mess anything that could be really good up. so i totally don't know what to do.

i wish i could put each on hold for 3 months and test them all out. then make a decsion. wouldn't that be grand?