Hey guys, I just figured something out and it may lead to the end of my problems So can you help me out, this one last time?
I finally figured out what's caused me to be so messed up since April. By messed up, I mean, I can't get past the first date with a girl, I've been avoiding my friends and parents, and my usual A and B+ grades have gone to B- and C's...
All the time I was fighting the rape accusation, I was so focused on clearing my name that dealing with the fact she did something that I told her not to do wasn't as important. Once I got my name cleared, I never dealt with the "sexual misconduct" that had happened to me. So I read more about it today, about how after an unwanted sexual act, a man (this is true of women rape victims) can become avoidant, socially distant, have flashbacks of it, and become scared of either the place or person involved (hence my puking reflex when I think I see her, I hate getting graphic like that )
What I need help on is this: do I explain this to my friends, explain why I've been a "worse" friend and explain it to the girls that I've tried to date, mainly the girl who's the daughter of my boss in the fall?
I don't want them to think that I'm digging up the past for sympathy, and I'd really like to be done with this whole thing, bury the hatchet, and move on, but is it better to move on or explain what happened?